Thursday, May 14, 2009

The Art of Genuine Criticism: Writing Without Base Motives Or Purposes

The Critical Way of Matthew Arnold

Matthew Arnold was one of the kindest writers in the history of cultural or literary criticism. He had to be ironic in writing -- when he couldn't be kind to people he wanted to criticize. (And he had a right to criticize others because he was a writer and a critic of culture!) It was a very basic idea from Matthew Arnold about what is necessary for a responsible and sensitive critic -- using irony -- in order to be kind-hearted enough, or to be a basically kind writer -- when he wants to criticize others! To many truly unkind (or perhaps uncomprehending) -- and also, yes!, invisible (but always listening, "WATCHNG", FOREVER EAVESDROPPING and often talking!) NOBODIES (NAMELY, BUSYBODIES AND MEDDLERS -- YES!, LEADING "people" up there!), this approach to critical writing was not so obviously understood nor acceptable NOR WELCOMED. They are just looking for self-approving and self-commending REFERENCES, CITATION, COMMENDATION and even collaboration (or cooperation) and even subordination! -- whenever they read what others are saying about them! But are they themselves not calculative and calculating? --and have they not already calculated their chances of getting what they desire or want (yes, so that they can be cocky and prickly and pesty enough to ask, always: What can I get out of READING your writing (regardless of its high quality or standard or value!)? Nothing is free, they say. If it is not for money, then why does a critic -- or any writer at all -- want to use irony (and other forms of related literary techniques) in his criticism? Irony, yes! -- and also, especially, sarcasm (the biting type) -- can be so hurting, humiliating, and totally dismissive of any man or woman (as a victim of such sarcasm or ironic remarks or criticism) that, when unthinkingly or irresponsibly used, especially, publicly -- in political criticism by writers, or in politically-motivated speeches by political leaders and public figures, it can utterly and devastatingly destroy your spirit, self-importance, self-confidence, self-belief and morale. And why does anyone want to criticize anything and anyone at all -- in the first place? Surely, a kind-hearted and kind soul should always flatter, praise, commend and say good things that would make his readers feel happy, pleased, and pleasured (especially with, or by, himself -- no?) -- yes, always feeling expectantly contented and comfortable about everything and anything?

Kindness is not what money -- or reputation or position or title or even power -- can buy! It comes from a critic WITH A KIND HEART (and, probably too, a gentle soul) who has to be "unkind" (to those who are themselves not KIND!) in order to criticize indirectly -- and hence, hopefully inoffensively! Do you really prefer DIRECT (MEANING: BRUTAL AND FULL-FRONTAL, EVEN ANNIHILATING) CRITICISM? DON'T YOU REALIZE BY NOW THAT IT is not only not artistic but is also not the way to save "the face" of those WHO DON'T EVER WANT TO BE CRITICIZED AT ALL IN ANY WAY? I mean, that form of MOLLY-CODDLING, SLIM-WRISTED, PANSY-WAISTED AND SISSY-LOOKING "criticism" (!) -- YES!, criticism that uses NO irony (and no biting sarcasm) AT ALL --is, well, what you call endearing (meaning: "genuine" ) criticism? -- by any credible standards? (of the kindest kind?).

Kindness -- and not being angry under silly and stupid or simply irrational or unjustified provocation -- are related to each other. Those who are kind tend not to be so easily or quickly or unthinkingly aroused or provoked, into making violent or just simply angry responses -- especially when such provocation or arousal is obviously, calculatingly and calculatively -- yes, and hence, deliberately intended and premeditated! If there is something suspicious or even slightly mysterious about such external provocation, a kind person (especially one with an artistic soul!) is even more unwilling to react (especially violently) -- at least not at the beginning, or even, and sometimes, not at all! If he feels justified (based on his reasoning power and sense of justice) not to be so emotionally entangled, involved or enslaved (or, thus, imprisoned -- by his very own defects or weaknesses!), then he should indeed NOT -- OR, AT LEAST, TRY NOT TO ALLOW HIMSELF TO -- BE SO!

"Slow to anger" -- isn't that some wise counsel or advice from that great spiritual leader, Jesus, who had given his believers and followers not only this important gem of moral and spiritual (or religious) wisdom but also much -- yes, way too much indeed (with the benefit of historical hindsight) of himself -- of his body, soul, mind and heart? But there are, obviously (from observation and experience) and, in addition, with one's common sense and knowledge (gained from reading -- especially HISTORY), so many genuine and true and authentic Christians in this world nowadays -- especially in this postmodern world of capitalism, mass consumerism, mass culture, commercialization, commercialism and -- goodness! gracious! -- surveillance technologies [and their related (human) forces of change: agents, commisars, smooth (technical) operators, and those VITAL and INDISPENSABLE -- yes!, prying and damned proud -- orbiting (heavenly!) communications satellites!]!

If only those invisible NOBODIES (yes, I mean: BUSYBODIES and MEDDLERS) -- ALWAYS OR FOREVER (!) listening, talking, "WATCHING" and EAVESDROPPING -- NAMELESS (NO?) LEADING people "up there" and THOSE UNNAMED AND HOPELESS FIGURES "down below" -- don't react so easily and so quickly OR SO UNTHINKINGLY, or not at all (IN SUCH PROHIBITIVE AND FORBIDDING AND PROVOCATIVE WAYS) -- when it seems so "natural" to do so!

Well, why must we always REACT? Sometimes, for reasons based on your feelings, and due to feelings based on your thoughts (especially rational ones), you simply don't have to respond! LIKE A MAN WHO KNOWS HIMSELF! (AND ALWAYS NOT WANTING TO BE OTHERWISE!)

OTHERS ("people" up there and down below) could not stop reacting -- even at this very moment! [Delayed reaction? Cunning? Playing with words and PHRASES AND SENTENCES -- INCOMPLETE OR OTHERWISE -- and CONCEPTS (OFTEN DISTORTED, TWISTED, CORRUPTED, TAINTED AND MISGUIDED!). Oh, look up the dictionary, please! [How can a non-reaction be a reaction? "A is A" -- my little brother(s) and sister(s)!]

That is all.

ON PERSISTENCE, INSISTENCE AND CONSCIENCE

WHAT DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH SAYS ........


  1. I'm trying -- persistently and insistently -- to show (prove?) that I'm a superior human being -- not necessarily a "winner" -- in contrast to those invisible "people" up there, presiding and lording over the land .......
  2. I'm not yet atrophied, spent, dissolute, gaunt, emaciated, exhausted, dissipated, withered, wrinkled, drooping, depleted, debauched, abandoned, washed-out, shrunken, shrivelled, profligate .........
  3. My heart says: Don't react -- for now (or not at all)!; but my mind asks: Why does he -- or do they -- provoke me thus? Just to anger me? (But I don't want to be angry: Anger must be justified -- with a good, true and beautiful reason!)
  4. I'm whole -- so I want only to react like a man who is whole: In other words, only when I am truly myself. (And I know myself!)
  5. The invisible "people" up there -- I know you must be listening intently now (after having been talking so much!) -- must realize that great men (and women -- are they prepared?) and geniuses are willing to suffer for their self-knowledge. Not knowledge itself in general but self-knowledge is power!
  6. When, and how, did I actually reach that point of being "crazy" in my reactions -- as if I've become unkind! (The "unkindness" before that point of actually being truly unkind was not actually "unkindness": It is rather -- oh, invisible (but always listening and often talking) "people" up there! -- what you "people" up there think (based on your side of looking at it) is "unkind"!
  7. From "Bizarre Odyssey" (a critical review of Norman Manea's THE BLACK ENVELOPE in Partisan Review; Vol. LXIV, No. 4; 1997) -- by Tess Lewis:
    Nor does insanity offer escape, for the reality that surrounds them is indistinguishable from madness. The only possible redemption seems to be escaping the boredom -- at whatever cost.

GREAT AUTHORS OF THE WESTERN WORLD



GREAT THINKERS

AND WRITERS FROM THE WEST

(AND SOME FROM THE EAST)





  1. Sigmund Freud (1856 - 1939)
  2. Balzac (1799 - 1850)
  3. Albert Camus (1913 - 1960)
  4. Erich Fromm
  5. Friedrich Nietzche
  6. William James
  7. George Orwell
  8. E.M. Forster
  9. Cesare Pavese
  10. Karl Popper
  11. Charles Dickens
  12. Leo Tolstoy
  13. Fyodor Dostoevsky
  14. Albert Einstein
  15. Norman Mailer
  16. John Updike
  17. Joseph Heller
  18. Philip Roth
  19. Ernest Hemingway
  20. William Faulkner
  21. Thomas Mann
  22. Erasmus
  23. Thomas More
  24. Immanuel Kant
  25. John Locke
  26. Henry James
  27. Leibniz
  28. Alexander Solzhenitsyn
  29. Boris Pasternak
  30. Ernest Becker
  31. T.S. Eliot
  32. Jean-Paul Sartre
  33. Arthur Schlesinger, Jr.
  34. Andre Malraux
  35. Thomas Hardy
  36. James Joyce
  37. Virginia Woolf
  38. Arthur Schopenhauer
  39. Rollo May
  40. William Styron
  41. Albert Schweitzer
  42. Henry Miller
  43. Alexis de Tocqueville
  44. Raymond Williams
  45. Stendhal
  46. Henry David Thoreau
  47. Ralph Waldo Emerson
  48. Carl Gustav Jung
  49. Plato
  50. Socrates
  51. Aristotle
  52. D.H. Lawrence
  53. Dante
  54. Hegel
  55. Francis Bacon
  56. Miguel de Cervantes
  57. Rabelais
  58. Saul Bellow
  59. Henry Fielding
  60. Laurence Sterne
  61. Jeremy Bentham
  62. Henri Bergson
  63. Norman O. Brown
  64. Edmund Burke
  65. Michael Bakunin
  66. Peter A. Kropotkin
  67. Pierre-Joseph Proudhon
  68. Hannah Arendt
  69. Robert M. Pirsig
  70. Jacques Barzun
  71. Lionel Trilling
  72. James Baldwin
  73. Jane Austen
  74. Noam Chomsky
  75. Frantz Fanon
  76. Victor Hugo
  77. David Hume
  78. Samuel Butler
  79. Henry Adams
  80. e.e. cummings
  81. Henri Ibsen
  82. Thomas Carlyle
  83. Cicero
  84. J.D. Salinger
  85. Benedict Spinoza
  86. Thucydides
  87. Voltaire
  88. Baudelaire
  89. Mary McCarthy
  90. Machiavelli
  91. Montesquieu
  92. Margaret Mead
  93. Marcel Proust
  94. Ayn Rand
  95. Jean-Jacques Rousseau
  96. Pascal
  97. David Reisman
  98. Plutarch
  99. Ezra Pound
  100. Jonathan swift
  101. Max Weber
  102. Charles Darwin
  103. Herbert Marcuse
  104. Jacques Maritain
  105. Franz Kafka
  106. Goethe
  107. John Dewey
  108. Andre Gide
  109. Thomas Hobbes
  110. Herodotus
  111. Truman Capote
  112. Cyril Connolly
  113. Sidney Hook
  114. T.E. Lawrence
  115. Henry James
  116. Malcolm Cowley
  117. F. Scott Fitzgerald
  118. Theodore Dreiser
  119. John Kenneth Galbraith
  120. Oliver Wendell Holmes
  121. G. E. Moore
  122. Nathaniel Hawthorne
  123. W. H. Auden
  124. Joseph Needham
  125. Reinhold Neibuhr
  126. Montaigne
  127. Simone de Beauvoir
  128. Rachel Carson
  129. Simon Weil
  130. Isaac Babel
  131. Aldous Huxley
  132. Martin Buber
  133. Auguste Comte
  134. Emile Durkheim
  135. Heraclitus
  136. Adam Smith
  137. H. G. Wells
  138. Herbert Read
  139. Evelyn Waugh
  140. Alexander Hamilton
  141. James Harrington
  142. James Madison
  143. Thomas Jefferson
  144. Arnold Toynbee
  145. Thomas Paine
  146. Graham Greene
  147. Thomas Malthus
  148. Irving Kristol
  149. Edward Gibbon
  150. Benjamin Franklin
  151. Flaubert
  152. Thomas Wolfe
  153. Alfred Adler
  154. Abraham Maslow
  155. Paul Goodman
  156. Tacitus
  157. Thorstein Veblen
  158. Oswald Spengler
  159. George Bernard Shaw
  160. R. D. Laing
  161. H. L. Mencken
  162. Lewis H. Lapham
  163. Alberto Moravia
  164. Vladimir Nabokov
  165. Bruno Bettelheim
  166. William F. Buckley, Jr.
  167. Jakob Burckhardt
  168. Emily Dickinson
  169. Russell Baker
  170. Xenophon
  171. Rebecca West
  172. Walt Whitman
  173. Robert Penn Warren
  174. Isaac Bashevis Singer
  175. Ignazio Silone
  176. Stephen Crane
  177. Otto Rank
  178. Robert Frost
  179. Joyce Carol Oates
  180. Lillian Hellman
  181. Irving Howe
  182. Milan Kundera
  183. Alfred Kazin
  184. Herbert Gold
  185. William Gass
  186. Henry Roth
  187. Harold Bloom
  188. Bernard Malamud
  189. Herman Melville
  190. Descartes
  191. Walter Kaufmann
  192. Eugene Ionesco
  193. Anthony Burgess
  194. E. L. Doctorow
  195. James Agee
  196. Lawrence Durrell
  197. Havelock Ellis
  198. Nikos Kazantzakis
  199. Joseph Conrad
  200. Hermann Hesse
  201. Gunter Grass
  202. Karl Barth
  203. Jorges Luis Borges
  204. Heinrich Boll
  205. Bertolt Brecht
  206. Maxim Gorky
  207. Erich Maria Remarque
  208. A. J. P. Taylor
  209. Oscar Wilde
  210. Barbara Tuchman
  211. Arthur Koestler
  212. Karl Jaspers
  213. John Maynard Keynes
  214. Heinrich Heine
  215. Charles S. Pierce
  216. William Morris
  217. Emily Bronte
  218. John Dos Passos
  219. George Gissing
  220. Edith Wharton
  221. William Carlos Williams
  222. John O'Hara
  223. Gogol
  224. Patrick White
  225. Romain Rolland
  226. Mark Twain
  227. John Steinbeck
  228. J. B. Priestley
  229. Jose Ortega y gasset
  230. Flannery O'Connor
  231. Iris Murdoch
  232. Sinclair Lewis
  233. Jack Kerouac
  234. C. P. Snow
  235. Susan Sontag
  236. Upton Sinclair
  237. William Hazlitt
  238. Konrad Z. Lorenz
  239. Euripides
  240. Epictetus
  241. Epicurus
  242. Marcus Aurelius
  243. Aeschylus
  244. Sophocles
  245. Edmund Husserl
  246. Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
  247. Malcolm X
  248. John Jay
  249. Martin Heidegger
  250. E. B. White
  251. Soren Kierkegaard
  252. Homer
  253. Tennessee Williams
  254. Matthew Arnold
  255. Samuel Johnson
  256. John Hersey (1914 - )
  257. John Stuart Mill
  258. Karl Marx
  259. Cesare Pavese
  260. Michael Bakunin
  261. Pierre-Joseph Proudhon
  262. Peter A. Kropotkin
  263. Samuel Butler
  264. Norman O. Brown
  265. Ernest Becker
  266. Irving Howe
  267. George Woodcock
  268. Ludwig Wittgenstein
  269. Doris Lessing
  270. Norman Mailer
  271. Edmund Wilson
  272. Lionel Trilling
  273. Alfred Kazin
  274. Tu Fu
  275. Wang Wei
  276. Su Tong Po
  277. Li Po
  278. Lao Tze
  279. Chuang Tze
  280. Confucius
  281. Mencius

Saturday, May 9, 2009

WORKING-CLASS HERO -- OF THE INTELLECTUAL AND LITERARY WORLD


THE END OF MY

JOURNEY AS A

LONELY DRIFTER


Yes, I did drift through this postmodern world for a while -- in fact, for quite a long while! But, please, what can I do? What could I have done? (Then?)

Now, I am almost out of the dark (cell of life). I can see the light! I am no longer divided! I am able to be whole once again! I am synchronised and in harmony with almost all aspects of my being -- and with my status as a man, citizen and writer! And that's something -- for someone, an unrepentant but struggling modernist writer to have arrive at!

Well, I didn't choose to have all these good "friends", "family members", relatives", "schoolmates", "classmates", "colleagues" and friendly "acquaintances"! (And, yes!, even good and able "leaders" too!) And I was like a pawn, a plaything, a toy, a puppet, and almost a figurehead too! They pitted me against each and every one of these soulmates of my life and I came out of such encounters and meetings like a goon!

Now, at this moment -- after being liberated from my life-long imprisonment (with a celebration one-man party at Queenstown Remand Prison to boot!), I want to ask these fucking bastards -- the invisible (and, for a long time, almost anonymous) listeners and talkers and "controllers" (of my sad and miserable life!) this question: Do you still want to take me for a goon? (Take a chance? You mean, pretend I'm being honoured and compensated by the contrite and enlightened (at last!) authorities -- with plenty of sex and silence? Or what?

I will NOT, big, big fucking EGOs, forego my own chance now -- yes, the opportunity and the challenge come together (ask President Hu Jintao of the People's Republic of China!) -- to become, yes, succeed, finally, as a writer of published (printed -- yes, I have to qualify that!) BOOKS and magazine articles (or essays)! I will remain firm, resolute, clear, definite, convinced and fully energetic in my ambition to achieve such a professional goal -- AS A WRITER!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

THE POWER OF TRUTH -- AGAINST THE POWERFUL ESTABLISHMENT

MAJOR OBSERVATIONS, REMARKABLE REMARKS AND KEY POINTS TO REFLECT ON --FOR THOSE EASILY-PACIFIED AND WELL-CONTENTED MEMBERS OF OUR POPULACE -- INTELLECTUALLY SPEAKING! :

WHAT ARE THE GENUINE ALTERNATIVES TO A PAP-CONTROLLED MASS MEDIA? ALL THE AVAILABLE -- AND AWFUL! -- ALTERNATIVES (SUCH AS PRINT MEDIA, BROADCAST MEDIA, AND ONLINE SOURCES OF NEWS AND INFORMATION) ARE STILL EXPOSED TO, AND EXPLOITED BY, THE GOVERNMENTAL SURVEILLANCE AUTHORITIES (WITH ALL THEIR INTELLIGENCE AND SECURITY AGENTS).

THERE ARE NO MORE GREY AREAS IN MY LIFE NOW. IT HAS NOW BECOME A FORMLESS BODY OF FRAGMENTS AND REMNANTS OF MY BROKEN AMBITIONS AND OF MY DISORGANIZED (AND HENCE UNPRODUCTIVE) LIFESTYLE -- FOR MOST OF THE PAST 36 YEARS.

IN MY SOMETIMES RUEFUL ATTEMPT TO LIVE, WORK AND PLAY -- AS MEANINGFULLY AS I CAN -- AS, UNFORTUNATELY, A MAN, HUMAN BEING, CITIZEN AND WRITER WHO IS UNWILLING AND UNHAPPY TO ACCEPT THE REALITY OR FACT OF HIS UNACCEPTABLE STATUS AS AN IMPLANTEE OF THE GOVERNMENT, I CAN STILL, SOMEHOW, IN SPITE OF EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEFALLEN ME, END UP AS THE EVENTUAL WINNER!



HEY, HEY, HEY!

ADDENDUM :

ON THE DUPLICITY OF THE PAP GOVERNMENT:

  1. ILLEGAL SURVEILLANCE ACTIVITIES;
  2. "WHISTLE-BLOWING" BY CIVILIAN EX-MILITARY OFFICERS/PERSONNEL;
  3. "DISCLOSURES" BY DETAINED DISSENTERS;
  4. CIVIL RIGHTS AND CONSCIENTIOUS OBJECTORS;
  5. HUMAN RIGHTS, PRIVACY AND CIVIL LIBERTIES;
  6. (MIS)TREATMENT OF DETAINEES (POLITICAL OR OTHERWISE);
  7. "TRUTH-TELLING" ABOUT MY AWOL CASE (IN 1972);
  8. NEO-CONSERVATIVE INTELLECTUAL DECEIT.

Monday, December 22, 2008

A QUESTION FOR, AND A REMINDER TO, MY DETESTABLE AND DETESTED "CONTROLLERS"

ON THE UNDENIABLE ART

OF SURVEILLANCE

TECHNOLOGIES

AND TECHNIQUES :



HERE IS MY CHALLENGE TO MY CURRENT "CONTROLLERS" [WHO CAME INTO THE PICTURE -- OF MY TREASURED OWN LIFE -- ONLY LATER (AFTER MY IMPLANTATION IN 1972 AND MY EARLY OR INITIAL "CONTROL" BY THE ESSENTIALLY MILITARY SECURITY AND INTELLIGENCE PERSONNEL DURING, AND FOR A TIME AFTER, MY TWO-AND-A-HALF YEARS OF NATIONAL SERVICE -- INCLUDING MY PERIOD OF EMPLOYMENT AT MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT BETWEEN DEC. 1975 AND OCT. 1976)] -- THOSE FORMER MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (MSD) AGENTS/PERSONNEL RESPONSIBLE FOR TURNING ME INTO AN, AT THE PRESENT MOMENT, (STILL) FINANCIALLY IMPOVERISHED STRUGGLING WRITER, SEXUALLY DEPRIVED MAN, CONCERNED HUMAN BEING AND NOW SELF-KNOWING AND POLITICALLY-AWARE (AND, TO CAP IT ALL, A CONSISTENTLY THINKING) SENIOR CITIZEN :

MY ONLY CHALLENGE, NOW, TO YOU :

SHOW ME THAT YOU CAN BE AS ACTIVE AS I HAVE BEEN (AND STILL WILL BE) IN PUBLISHING (OR POSTING) MY ARTICLES IN MY SOCIO-POLITICAL BLOGS ( http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/ AND http://trainofmypresence.blogspot.com/ ) -- BY POSTING A SERIES OF ARTICLES OR STORIES (WRITTEN BY YOURSELF) IN MY VERY OWN BLOG (BUT UNDER YOUR OWN REAL AND ACTUAL NAME AND IDENTITY, SURELY AND CERTAINLY!). YOU KNOW YOU CAN EASILY DO THIS -- WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE WHATSOVER. YES, THE MOMENT YOU IDENTIFY YOURSELF AS THE AUTHOR OF ANY ARTICLE OR STORY THAT YOU ARE POSTING OR PUBLISHING IN MY BLOG, IT WILL BE, OPENLY AND PUBLICLY, ESTABLISHED AND CONFIRMED, AS A FACT, THAT I HAVE PERSONALLY APPROVED AND ACCEPTED YOUR APPEARANCE IN MY BLOG -- AS A MEMBER OF AN UNOFFICIAL TEAM OF BLOGGERS (CONSISTING OF YOURS TRULY, AS THE ORIGINAL OWNER OF THIS BLOG AND ALL THE REST OF THE TEAM MEMBERS, WHO WERE, AND STILL ARE, OFFICIAL MEMBERS OF THE SURVEILLANCE GROUP OF AGENTS WHO HAVE BEEN CONTROLLING ME FOR MORE THAN 36 YEARS NOW).

YOU WILL BE WRITING AS A NON-POLITICAL (WELL, CAN YOU REALLY?) AND NON-ROMANTIC (PERHAPS A LITTLE BIT TRYING FOR THE WOMEN?) BLOGGER IN MY OTHER NEWLY-CREATED (YES, NOT TOO WELL-ESTABLISHED OR HIGHLY-INFLUENTIAL YET) ALTERNATIVE BLOG -- http://thenon-romanticloverandwriter.blogspot.com/ .


THEN, AS AN UNDENIABLE CONFIRMATION OF YOUR WRITING ABILITY -- AS A REAL WRITER, AND NOT JUST AS A BLOGGER -- YOU MUST AT LEAST WRITE AND PUBLISH (IN PRINT) ONE BOOK ON ANY TOPIC OF YOUR OWN CHOICE. THIS IS TO PROVE THAT YOU ARE JUSTIFIED IN EXPECTING ME TO WORK AT THE HIGHEST LEVEL AS A PAP AGENT OR GOVERNMENT EMPLOYEE (WHEN I WAS, AND STILL AM, REALLY AND ONLY INTERESTED IN BEING A PROFESSIONAL WRITER -- ALBEIT A WRITER WITH AN INTELLECTUAL BENT) -- DURING THE PAST 36 YEARS OR SO, WHEN I WAS LIVING, WORKING AND EVEN PLAYING AS AN UNWILLING AND UNHAPPY IMPLANTEE. (IN OTHER WORDS, FOR THE SAKE OF FURTHER EXPLANATION OF MY INTENTION : I WANT YOU TO BE AS GOOD IN SOMETHING WHICH YOU HAVE NO INTEREST -- AS I WAS TRYING TO BE, AT MY ABSOLUTELY MARVELLOUS BEST, WHEN I WAS -- WELL, TO PUT IT SIMPLY NOW -- UNFAIRLY AND UNJUSTLY AND EVEN INHUMANELY EXPECTED, AND INSTRUCTED (AND OFTEN ADMONISHED) TO BE AS GOOD IN SOMETHING WHICH I HAVE NO INTEREST WHATSOEVER, ABSOLUTELY!

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR -- TO EXPECT FROM YOU PEOPLE, AS MY POWERFUL CONTROLLERS -- A FACT THAT I JUST CAN'T SIMPLY CAST AWAY AND HOPE THAT IT DISAPPEARS?

YES, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN OF THE UBIQUITOUS INTELLIGENCE AND SECURITY AGENCIES OF SINGAPORE (THE NAMELESS MEMBERS OF OUR POWERFUL SURVEILLANCE AUTHORITIES) : NOW YOU CAN SHOW TO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD JUST HOW GOOD -- EVEN BRILLIANT -- YOU PEOPLE REALLY ARE (OR ARE CAPABLE OF) -- YES, EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU, OUR GOOD AND ABLE AND CARING LEADERS OF THE INTELLIGENT AND SECURE GOVERNING AUTHORITIES! REALLY, YOU CAN BE AS GOOD AS, IF NOT BETTER THAN, ALL THOSE WESTERN WRITERS AND ARTISTS AND THINKERS AND AUTHORS WHO FORM THE FORMIDABLE INTELLECTUAL TRADITION OF THE WEST (YES, A TRADITION WHICH I MYSELF HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING KEENLY AS A FAITHFUL READER -- AND ASPIRING WRITER -- FOR MORE THAN 36 YEARS NOW -- IN SPITE OF BEING AN UNHAPPY AND UNWILLING IMPLANTEE!)

YES, YOU PEOPLE CAN FINALLY PROVE, OFFICIALLY, OPENLY AND UNDOUBTEDLY, THAT YOU PEOPLE ARE REALLY SUPERIOR -- OR AT LEAST EQUAL -- TO DEAR OLD ME, IN TERMS OF NOT ONLY NATURAL AND/OR LEARNED WRITING ABILITY BUT ALSO, AND MORE IMPORTANTLY -- TO ME AT LEAST -- OF NATURAL AND/OR ACQUIRED THINKING POWER AND ABILITY! HOW ABOUT IT/THAT?

YES, SHOW ME YOUR ARTISTIC SENSITIVITY AND YOUR GREAT SKILL IN WRITING!

DO YOU PEOPLE (AS I STILL DO NOW, AND AS I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN, AS A WRITER), LOVE TO EXPERIMENT AND TO EXPLORE THE LIMITS OF THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE -- WITH REGARD TO ITS USAGE -- AS IN THE IMAGINATIVE AND CLEVER USAGE OF WORDS, PHRASES AND SENTENCES TO MAKE A POINT, TO CREATE AN IMPRESSION, OR EVEN TO POST A REBUTTAL TO AN INSULT?

ARE YOU CAPABLE OF BEING INSPIRED BY YOUR PASSION (PROBABLY NON-EXISTENT BY NOW, NOTING HOW JADED YOU ARE NOW?) FOR THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE? AND ALSO BY WHAT IS AROUND YOU -- YES, BY THE PEOPLE AND CITIES (BIG AND SMALL), TRAVEL AND YOUR CONNECTION TO THE LANDSCAPE AND THE VIBRANT ENERGY OF OUR PLANET EARTH?


AS AN IMPORTANT AFTERTHOUGHT :

DON'T JUST GET TOO CAUGHT UP WITH OR BY MY, WITHOUT QUESTION, STRANGE, MYSTERIOUS AND INEXPLICABLE (SEXUALLY SPEAKING) SUBDUED PERFORMANCE
AS A PATRONIZING LOVER OF PROSTITUTES (THEN AND NOW, IN GEYLANG AND ELSEWHERE) -- ESPECIALLY NOT AFTER ALL THIS INACTIVITY (FOR MOST OF THE PAST TEN YEARS -- SURELY A LONG PERIOD OF TIME IN WHICH I WAS FREQUENTLY DENIED BY YOU PEOPLE FROM HAVING SEXUAL FULFILLMENT, FUN, DELIGHT, JOY, RENEWAL AND REVITALIZATION, EXCEPT BY ENGAGING IN UNDESIRED, UNDESIRABLE AND REALLY POINTLESS ACTS OF MASTURBATION!) -- UNTIL NOW IN THIS MOST MOMENTOUS AND ACTIVE YEAR, 2008 -- YES, AMONG SO MANY OTHER UNEVENTFUL AND FRUITLESS YEARS GONE BY?


THAT IS ALL!


ADDENDUM:

YOU PEOPLE HAVE WORKED HARD TOGETHER AS A TEAM FOR MORE THAN 36 YEARS NOW! HAVE YOU PEOPLE EVER CREATED ANY WORKS OF ART -- AS WRITERS -- THAT HAVE EARNED YOU PEOPLE INTERNATIONAL RECOGNITION? (IN NEW YORK? CHICAGO? NEW ZEALAND? AUSTRALIA? GERMANY? SWEDEN? DENMARK? U.S.A.? HONG KONG? (SINGAPORE? YES!) DUBAI? THAILAND? INDONESIA? TAIWAN? CHINA? JAPAN?

HAVE YOU, DEAREST -- EVER? YET?

YOU FUCKING IDIOTS!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Reflections On My Need To Adopt Convenient "Solutions" For Myself In The Way I Live, Play And Work

In a time of universal deceit, telling the truth becomes a revolutionary act.

-- George Orwell



There are times when, to achieve short-term goals (at the micro-level), I have to disregard my need to be specific or particular in what I choose or decide -- in what, in other words, I have to do, say or think (in order to achieve such short-term goals)!

And this neccessity to disregard my need to be specific is forced upon me -- mostly on many such occasions, yes!, by the crucial factors in existence at those times and in those places -- in my own environment!

It is NOT, I admit, a genuine or bona fide solution to my problems and needs as a man -- as a lover.

But, dear readers, was my own implantation (to which I had not given my approval, consent, agreement or acceptance in any way or in any form -- and even now, in retrospect, never will!), in that momentous year 1972, a genuine or bona fide solution in the first place?

If it was, why then do I, in my effort to satisfy my needs, become reduced to such an unbearable state of FINANCIAL destitution that I have, and need, to seek FINANCIAL assistance from a governmental social welfare agency -- North West Community Development council -- in such a desperate manner?

Am I not publicly acknowledged, openly recognized, now, and widely supported too, yes, and even admired -- through my distinctive and distinguished BLOGS -- as an oppositioniost critic of the Singapore Government -- as an indomitable and individualistic writer of serious and thoughtful but also interesting, informative, enlightening and educational articles or essays of a very high quality and standard?

Did, yes!, those loving, lovable and lovely dear lonely-hearted military officers at SAFTI in 1972 -- and now officially retired -- really CARE, SHARE and BOND with me, in the first place (and even now?) -- with, in other words, my values, principles, ideas, ideals, convictions, beliefs, interests, goals and needs?